Lovers love, Liars lie

The way I've been feeling lately is most describable like…death

Ive been feeling like im better off dead

And I really wish that people could just understand

I mean I've had people back-stab me

I've had someone who I thought I was kind of cool with

Totally lie and get me a Saturday detention

Which he has no idea how much its going to fuck up my life

I just don’t really know what to do

Also one of these guys that I really like 

I guess is just pretending to like me

I don’t really know…

He apparently blocked me on aim

And… he has no idea how much that hurts

I don’t know what he’s doing behind my back

But all that he does hurts…

Just everything that has been going on sucks

I left my most perfect girlfriend

For reasons I’m not even sure about

I thought I needed space

But when I feel like I need space

I actually need her more than anything in the world

Shes so beautiful and I don’t know why I did what I did…

I seriously want to kill myself

And im super serious this time

I just wish I really had it in me to follow through

If I wasn’t such a chicken I would actually do it and I wouldn’t just cut

I’m not posting this for sympathy

I’m posting this because this is my blog

Where I get to say how I feel

So I hope you can leave all your bad comments inside

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