The Way You Make Me Feel

I can’t really handle this anymore…

You have constantly been making me feel like crap

I love you, but you obviously don’t love me enough to just calm down

I don’t get why when you point out my flaws, I’m supposed to act calm

But if I point out yours (which I barely ever do), you’re allowed to blow up…

I don’t get it…

Did you even know that I often wonder what I do wrong to make you yell at me?

Yes, I “cheated” on you, but I cried my eyes out and told you I would never do it again

I can’t promise that I will never hurt you…

Actually, did you remember that you promised me that you would never hurt me?

It’s weird though… I thought people who are hurting cry…right?

But I guess I’m not hurting… because you promised me you wouldn’t hurt me…

I’ve been crying all day… I threw up this morning… I tried to skip school today

But my grampa was being a dick and made me go to school

You hurt me more than anyone else I’ve ever dated

More than Rickey, Nick, and any other boy put together…

You said you were different…. I guess you were right

Your better at pushing pain on me…

I love you, but I don’t know if I can handle all this pain anymore…

I don’t know if I want to try to work things out, mostly because no matter what

You’re still going to hold a grudge

And you right… I did say if you cheated on me I would break up with you…

So just dump me… and get on with your life

Thanks for the memories

Goodbye

Dude I Fucking Love You

I'm not trying to sound creepy

But you prove to me everyday why I like you so much

I mean we have WAAAAY! too much in common

We like the almost all the same bands

We listen to a lot of the same music

We (kind of) hang around the same people

It’s just really weird to me

I know you said you don’t like me like the way I want you to

But that’s cool

I just REALLY want an awesome friendship

Like seriously… lets go somewhere one day

Like lets go to the park near my house

Or to a bowling alley

Or mini-golf

Or… I don’t know

Just something

My friendship with you is real important to me

I know it may make me seem obsessive, but I’m just trying to be a friend

Lol I’m being really repetitive… so I think you get the point

My Perfect Man?

Well I mean if I was really forced to describe my perfect man

I would probably say…

Tall (at least taller than me… maybe 5’10 or taller), but not scary beasts

Dark “flippy” hair

Pale-ish skin (sorry to all you dark guys xD)

Skinny jeans or at least no super baggy “gangsta” jeans

I like when guys wear black

I don’t really know why

I guess that colour really turns me on ;) ;) LOL

I really like guys who are tough, so they can protect mee :D

Because I’m really tiny and I slap people and that’s it… can’t really punch hard xD

I also really like guys with really white teeth

And guys that really take care of themselves

Not like self-obsessed guys

But guys that like take time to brush their hair and their teeth

And dental hygiene is SUPER important to me

So you better be using mouthwash, gum, toothbrush, a tongue scrubber…

Whatever to make your breath awesome

I really like snuggling and just talking sometimes

So I need a guy who is sensitive and is okay with just talking about random stuff

But don’t worry, I do like kissing and maybe going farther ;) ;)

BUT! We have to date for a while to actually get farther than kissing

It takes me awhile to trust people

So I really hope you can handle that much

I also love to play around

I LOVE acting like a little kid sometimes

Like going to the beach or to the park and just running around

Alright well… I think I’ve described my “perfect” man enough

In reality though, there is no such thing as perfect

But sometimes you find something real close

Which I think I already have :D

You know who you are… hopefully 

Sorry for Staring

I can't really help my feelings for you
I always think about you
I dream about you... not to sound creepy


I just wanted to know...
Why did you stare back on friday?
I looked at you for awhile just to see your face
Then you looked at me
I turned away... then turned back to see if you were still looking
And you were... Why?


I still wonder what I did wrong
We were so in love
And now... what are we?
Friends? I wish we were more
Well of course I do
You were great
And you meant the world to me
....
You still do


I just miss you a lot
I don't mean to stare
I just wish we weren't walking on eggshells with each other


I'm not asking for us to jump in to a relationship with each other
I'm just asking for a friendship, if thats all you can give me
I know school is hard for us to be with each other because of how rumors spread
I kind of want to be able to hang out with you
Maybe outside of school
We could go bowling, like you said...
Just as friends
If thats what you want


I hope you are reading this and not getting too upset
I've always wanted to still be apart of you life
In any way
I just want you to know that much
Again, I hope you are reading this and not getting too upset