Its such bullshit

How do you expect someone to be so cool when you are being a complete asshole?

You arent doing anything important and yet me asking you to do something small that takes a few seconds maybe minutes is like me asking you to fucking write me a 600 word essay on like some super secret thing that is difficult to find...

How do you expect me not to get mad?

You acting like a complete fucking dickhead will make me fucking upset so dont fucking act like i have no fucking right to be fucking upset.

So fuck you, fatass

Sports vs sex

Its so amazing to me how a fucking stupid ass sport is more important to this motherfucker than his own girlfriend...

Who he's not gonna see for a whole week next week and said that he wanted his girlfriend to stay over until he left

Hmm... Interesting

Its so fucking stupid. If men are so in love with sports than why don't they just date sports because if i was watching somethn and would only miss like 2-4 minutes of it to go pick up someone that i supposedly love, then i would be like "ohkay lemme go get (said person)" 

Thats fucked up

Boys are so stupid

Sooo...

He hasnt told me he loves me

He complains that i dont kiss him first when he never kisses me first

He acts like i'm not allowed to be upset when i fuckin am

Think about it, we act almost exactly the same except the "babe" and "i love you" thing and maybe i'm "overreacting" but i'm realy not

Me and him have been together for technically 1 year and 7 months... I think thats enough time for us to say that we love each other even after a big fight

Its like he only cares about me bcuz he wants to get his "dicky sticky"

Ooh and, he always calls me and tries to be romantic ONLY when he's drunk

I get when he was "punishing me" for that week, but whats goin on now is bullshit... Complete and utter bullshit

I'm sorry but thats just how i feel

And i'm getting more and more upset the more we hang out and the fact that he aint even doin anythn like that for me

So yeah, i'm pissed...

I guess...

With the way everything is going

I guess we're starting all over

He never says i love you to me

He doesn't call me babe

He just seems to not care

To not wanna try

And i really don't feel like trying if he doesn't want to.

I honestly dunno what i'm supposed to do

I'm not really sure what we are doing

It just feels like we're starting all over and honestly, its kind of bullshit...

I guess we'll see what happens

I just hope we're not moving backwards... Because thats really unfair

What to believe

Do i believe him? Sometimes i do and sometimes i don't

Its hard to believe in someone that has betrayed you before... Its hard to believe in someone that says nothin is goin on but then i hear somethn different from somebody else.

I'm not saying i believe in rumors, nor am i saying that i don't trust him.

Its more of just like, if you wanna be stupid, don't expect me to hold your hand after you are done.

I'm just really hoping i'm not being made a fool of. 

I guess we'll see what happens.

I just felt defeated and alone all week, so its kinda hard to stay upbeat and positive when you honestly do not know what is going on.

I'm trying to be cool, calm, and collected and because normally nothing is going on and i'm just trippin...

I just really hope that continues to be the case, but i guess we'll see.

I know how to play it to find out if its real.

I'm always scared of what i do not know.

I'm just hoping that everything is okay now, and i dont have to worry anymore.

I just want things to be better

I really just wish things were better

I love him very much and i want us to be back

I just wish things were back to when we used to cuddle and kiss and fuck :P

I just miss him... So much

Compromise

It actually makes me really sad that he doesn't want to see me or talk to me.

Like what boyfriend doesn't want to see or talk to their girlfriend often?

I just wish he cared more

I feel like i'm the only who really want to be in this relationship

Like how can someone not miss someone they supposedly love... 

Idunno, i guess our relationship has turned to shit.. And i dont really know what to do about it.

:/ i just wanna be loved, i just want to be cared about, i just wanna be missed.

I guess we'll see what happens. I guess i just need to learn to stop caring.