The thing that changed my life the most and shaped my identity was my high school sweetheart. He influenced my life more than anyone else in this world. I never felt good enough my whole life. I was always discouraged and shy, even though to others I constantly seemed confident and that I didn’t care what people thought. He always saw right through that part of me.
We met in the beginning of my senior year and once I saw him, I knew my life would never be the same. As soon as our eyes met, he had me. He was a perfect gentleman, always there to protect me and always there for me when I needed him most. When I was on the edge, praying to God to take me away from everything, God would send me an angel, and it was him, the man I knew I would love forever. He helped me keep my grades up, which wasn’t too important to me at the time, but he saw potential in me and knew that I was more than I thought of myself. Anytime I felt down on my art, he was always there to pick me up and inspire me.
I was always nervous to put myself out there, especially when it came to singing. He was the only one I was okay to sing in front of other than the four walls surrounding me in my room and the big crowds I made up in my head. I wanted to be a part of the talent show at my school since I was a Freshman, but I was too afraid of opening myself to so many people. Despite my fighting him and being stubborn, he constantly pushed me to let go and to finally open my voice and my heart to other people through music. The morning of the talent show, I woke up crying because of a terrible dream I was having. He automatically wrapped his arms around me and told me that I can do whatever I set my mind too and that I will not fail as much as I fear that I will. He also reminded me that no matter happens he will be there for me and he will be proud of me through it all. Later that night, I did the talent show and I succeeded. Once I looked into his beautiful blue eyes before opening my mouth to sing, I was able to let go and do what I set out to do. The audience applauded and people shouted, and I knew that I had nothing more to be afraid of. It was all thanks to him.
He was in my life for a year and that was enough to change my entire perspective on the world. He opened me up to a whole new world where I had nothing to be afraid of. He showed me true love and true kindness that only people in their most pure dreams could ever imagine. I began proud of myself, more confident, and more full of self-worth because of him.
He may not know it, but he influenced me for the rest of my life and I am eternally grateful for that. I hope one day he can be back in my life, so I can do the same for him.
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