Questions

When did chivalry become so outdated? 

Why do men suck?

Why can't you be nice?

Why do men change after they got you?

Why can't men be good?

Why can't i be happy?

Wtf do i do with my life?

angry words that dont mean a thing

you fucking stupid fucking asshole
lying mother fucker
i wanna punch you in your stupid idiot face
i hope you get herpes from all your whores you stupid fucking cunt
ya know what i hate most about you
your fucking secrets
like are you fucking kidding
stop fucking hiding shit
you stupid fucking dickfucker
whatever, start by fucking yourself... then the rest of the world
fuck you
fuck your friends
and fuck everything you care about
fuck you

.... i feel better now.

You say...

You say you've dated sluts, psycho paths, and liars and you wanted to put me right in there with them and fine do it, i really dont care. But, i was never like that before you. I was actually very smart, very sweet and very determined to make a difference. 

I've known for awhile that i didnt deserve the bullshit you put me through

And now i know for sure that i dont

I also know that you brought out the worst person in me and i will never forgive you for that

I dont know what we had, but i never want it again... Never.

The now

Now i dont have to care of think about his feelings no matter what i do

I plan on leaving tmrw to fremont hopefully this week going to chicago to stay forever

There are way cooler people there anyways, plus i'll actually get to live with my dad... And you know what they say. The only man a girl can depend on isnher daddy

Not some psycho-pathic jerk with a drugged out mother tryna get you 

 HA stupid cunts

I can't wait to leave

Have fun with all the STDs mister

I could have really changed for you, but you wouldnt for me

So i am DONE 

AND THATS A WRAP.

Goodnight ya'll

Life begins now

Ya know what i dont get

Him and his guy friends talk about all these slutty girls that they've been with

And a lot of his friends r with slutty girls but they are so whipped on their girlfriends 

And yet i am basically this perfect angel other than my anger problems and... He treats me like shit

I dont get it

Why cant he love me furreal

Do i hve to be a slut for him to love me?

Because if so... Then maybe me and him shouldnt be together

I cant do that

I'm like not like that

I dont get why he cant really love me... Like really an truly love me

Its unfair

Shouldn't it break your heart

I know whenever i see someone crying, i automatically feel sad.

I can literally cry for hours 

He will see it

And not care

No matter how mad i am at him, if i see him cry.. I will feel bad

He doesnt, he doesnt care

I honestly dont think he loves me

Whether it be anymore or at all... Maybe he never really loved me

Maybe he just needed some nookey... Needed someone who he knew would love him no matter what he did

Why am i such a sucker

I'm such a loser

I hate myself.

Barely trusted

I honestly am starting to trust him less and less.

He spends less time with me now.

He is always on his phone

When i get near him and he's texting someone, he exits out of it so quick

He tells me nothing is going on and that he just needs his phone for work

But what if he's lying

I try looking through his phone but he's always clinging to it so its hard to get to.

I want to trust him but he doesn't really show me things that make me able to trust him.

Yes he's bought me a bunch of gifts and is able to be very nice to me but... Sometimes i dont feel like thats enough.

I just hope i can shake this.