You always wish people the best
When you say your goodbyes and fair-wells
You want to make sure that before they leave
That their lives are far less complicated than yours
I always seem to wish for you
I’m not saying you’re the best
You’re actually probably the worst
I mean…shit
You kind of treated me like crap
I mean…I don’t think you did on purpose
I think you were just ignorant
Haha… I still think you are
I know that you are still in love with her
And that’s great for you
But it’s torturous for me
Every time I listen to certain songs
I get a little teary-eyed or my vision becomes blurred
{that also might be because I’ve been refusing to wear my glasses}
{that also might be because I’ve been refusing to wear my glasses}
Especially If It Means A Lot To You
And You Had Me At Hello
Because I thought those songs applied to us well
Haha
I guess If It Means A Lot To You applies to us the best
Because in the end one of them gets left and their life is crashing around them
But of course I might be happy again
And maybe we could be friends
I highly doubt it, but we can always try
I’m not extremely angry with you
I am just so confused
I mean… why would you give someone false hope like that?
Give them kisses on the lips, cheek, neck
Call them pretty and say that you like looking at them
Gripping them oh so tight and making noises that sound so home-y and comforting
And then take it out from under them…
I don’t see how someone can be so heartless
But of course you did once tell me that you were heartless
I guess over time I tried to ignore that fact
You’re lucky though
I wish I was heartless
Because pain in the heart usually affects other things
Like your stomach for example
I was throwing up after the news you told me how ever many Sundays ago
It may not even have been because of you
I just thought the irony of that was very interesting
The funniest part about this blog is that
I don’t even care for you as much as it probably sounds like I do
I think that maybe you do need to do what you said
I think that maybe you need to put yourself together before you can be in a relationship
And maybe your statuses are about me
So if they are…
I want to give you a piece of advice
And this isn’t even mainly for me
You can use this on any other girl
I think a guy like you will need it.
If you hurt a girl
Maybe not even like the way you did to me
But if you hurt a girl in any way
Especially if you make her cry
It is really hard to get them back to how and where you want them
The strong ones at least
And I really hope you aren’t interested in the weak ones
As an old friend, I’m telling you to not be like that
You are going to have to really dig deep to get them back
There is obviously the traditional stand-by
The whole roses and chocolate thing
But that’s a load of bullshit
Girls say they want that stuff
But once we get it, we’re going to say to you
“That’s it?”
Personally, I’ve always wanted a guy to send me flowers to one of my classes
And then come visit me after I was done with school
Or just come visit me at school
With a bouquet of roses and this big speech about how big of an idiot he was
Hahaha
Sorry…just thinking about some guy doing that makes me laugh
Because…no offense… but boys are so cocky and stupid
They would never be able to put themselves on the line of humiliation and even the score
And I know it’s really difficult for you boys to admit that you were wrong…
But I think if you really care for a girl…
You should do anything you can to make her happy
I think that’s really all it is
Just happiness
And god damn I need a big dose of that
So I hope some one is holding the prescription
Because I’m itching for a cure
